Happy Birthday, my love!
I’m not sure how I’ll get through this letter without crying. I can’t believe that it’s been a year since you’ve entered our lives. This past year has been nothing short of amazing. You’ve opened my eyes to a whole new life and a whole new side of love. You’ve added to the love your dad and I already had and made our marriage and our friendship so much stronger. You’ve made me a softer, gentler woman. You’ve opened my heart to experience and feel things I’d always been too hardened to feel before. You’ve made me realize just how good life is. I started constantly saying “I love my life” and you’ve helped me to see that. I love you with all of my being. Thank you for being such an amazing baby and teaching me how to be a mommy. You have guided me and shown me everything. You are wonderful, amazing, sweet, cuddly, funny and so much more all rolled up into one little girl!
You have truly been so so so good! You were never a crier, never a fusser. Strangers told me (and still do) how good you are. You are so giving already. You will grab something and then hand it to your dad or me. You’ve started giving Tess kisses and your baby too. You’re attached to your blankie and will sometimes just want to sit in my lap and cuddle with it. You play with it in your hands. You are so happy when we bring you to the store. You smile and giggle at strangers. Sometimes you wave too. You’ve grown much more attached to me lately. If I walk away, or go upstairs you try to follow after me. If I’m upstairs, you’ll yell ‘mama, mama!’ It’s so good to hear you call me mama. I love my new name.
I was induced the morning of May 12th. We were sure you’d be born on the 12th because my doctor said we’d start the induction that morning and you’d be here by the evening. It didn’t happen that way! You had other plans. The induction started at 8:30 am on a Tuesday and you arrived by c-section the next morning at 5:05 a.m. The labor process was really all a blur. I was relaxed for the most part and just wanted to meet you. Your dad was so supportive and loving the entire time. Both Babcia and Grandma stayed the whole night until you were born the next morning. Your Grandpa was there until midnight but had to go to work the next morning. Since your gender was a surprise they asked me how I wanted to find out as they were wheeling me into the surgery room. I told them I wanted your dad to tell me. When I heard you cry for the first time I started crying. It was the best sound I had ever heard. Then your dad said, “It’s a girl” and I can still hear the emotion in his voice. I was so happy. When they held you up I immediately knew you looked just like daddy. Your dad was the first to hold you and then he brought you over to me after they weighed you and cleaned you up. I kissed you and couldn’t wait to hold you. On our fifth day in the hospital I got to bring you home. Your dad didn’t leave the hosptial once in five days! He was an amazing dad from day one. He helped me breastfeed, asked all the right questions, changed diapers, and took care of us both. He gave you the nickname Cici while we were in the hosptial. We were so in love with you from the beginning and that love grows more and more each day.
How far you’ve come this past year. You took your first 3 steps just two days ago! You walked to me. And you were so proud! I remember how alert you were from the day you were born. I hadn’t really thought of it, but people were telling me that in the hospital and when you came home. You are a thinker. You love to have objects placed ‘just so’ in containers. You brush your teeth with me every morning. You love baths. You sleep on your tummy with your head on your blankie. You are SO SMART! You copy me. You cough when I cough. You copy us sneezing. You clap. You raise your hands above your head when we say ‘so big!’ You love to play peek-a-boo. You love, love, love your daddy. You bring Tess her bone. You know what a nose is and point to yours when I say ‘where’s your nose?’ You LOVE music. You love avocados, icecream, yogurt, peas, cucumbers, mangos – basically every food. There hasn’t been a food I’ve given you that you haven’t liked. You go to bed every night at 8 pm. You wake up every morning with a smile on your face. You love books and started bringing them to us when you want us to read to you. You say mama, dada, tehteh (for Tess), baba, hi and bye. You dance.
I am so proud of everything you do. I cherish every day with you. Happy first birthday, my sweet girl! Thank you for making this year so memorable!