How is it that 7 years have gone by since you’ve came into our lives?! You amazed me then and you amaze me now. You are a shining light. You play such a pivotal role in our family. I am so grateful for you and I am proud to be your mom.I had a realization the other day and it was bittersweet. It was the night before Mother’s Day, I was thinking of how I am so fortunate to be a mom. How these are “the days” even though so many of us parents say how stressful parenting is. Sure, but I know that one day I will miss these days. I was thinking that right now I’m important and that one day I won’t be as important as I am now. I won’t be needed as much. It made me a little sad. I thought of how you and I hold hands. I don’t for one second take holding your hand for granted. Every time I reach out and you put your hand in mine, I am so grateful for that moment. I started thinking that there will come a day when you don’t want to hold my hand anymore. Of course, that’s the way things go, but I’ll sure miss holding your hand. I am enjoying my time with you so much.
As many, many more experienced mothers have reminded us younger mothers, the years I have with you at home will pass much too quickly. I know that in the not so distant future there may come a period of time when we don’t see eye-to-eye or when you may not be my biggest fan. I hope I can communicate somehow to you that it will be OK. I hope that I’ll stand strong in knowing that you’ll come back to me later on, after you’ve gone off and found your own way, separate from mine. I know relationships with mothers and daughters can be tumultuous. I hope that ours might be a little different. But regardless of what may happen, I’ll always be here to lend an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on or a hand to hold. No questions asked, no judgements made. I will always love you, no matter what.
There are similarities between us. I see some of me in you and some of your characteristics remind me of myself when I was your age. You love gaming and are good at it. You are creative. You love baking, drawing, coloring and crafting. You love to read. You are resourceful. I am so, so proud of you just as you are. But you are much more outgoing than I was and I love that about you. You have the biggest, brightest personality. Your laugh is truly infectious. You aren’t afraid to tell it like it is and we all just love that about you. You do fight with your siblings from time to time but you can also be very sweet and show empathy towards them. You are comforting to them when least expected. One day you told me, “Mom, you know how I say stuff about how I don’t like Elin sometimes? Well, I don’t really mean it. I really do love her.”
For your birthday you asked months ago, to go to the mall with just me and go shopping. So, along with a handful of small gifts that we gave you for your birthday, we gave you money to spend at the mall. You took your time deciding what to buy, which is what you always do when you shop. You’ll ask me, “how much will I have left if I get this?” and then I can see you thinking as to whether or not that item is worth it to you. After the mall, we went to see Shawna, who mentioned to me a couple of months ago that she wanted to put in some purple extensions for you for your birthday since you’ve occasionally asked about when you can get colors in your hair. I figured I’d surprise you by us just showing up there. You love your new hair. And, paired with the glasses you bought for yourself at the mall, you look so grown up!
We had a great day, you and I. You told me throughout the day that it was the best birthday ever. “Better than the best!” you said.
At the end of the day, you started writing in your new diary (another purchase you made) a story of the day you were born. It seems to me like it was just yesterday and now here before me I see a young girl who is so much more than I could have ever imagined my little baby to be.
Enjoy being SEVEN! There is so much to look forward to!